"I Won’t Give Up"

Hmmmm … Hmmmm … Hmmmm … Hmmm …

When I look into your eyes
It’s like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there’s so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you’ve come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

Well, I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

And when you’re needing your space
To do some navigating
I’ll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We’ve got a lot to learn
God knows we’re worth it
No, I won’t give up

I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you’re still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I’ve got, and what I’m not
And who I am

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up
Still looking up.

I won’t give up on us (no I’m not giving up)
God knows I’m tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We’ve got a lot to learn (we’re alive, we are loved)
God knows we’re worth it (and we’re worth it)

I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up

i feel like my heart could explode right now. everything going on in my head at once… i can’t process all of this information, yet some how, i’m doing it thanks to you, tiny orange pill, i feel limitless yet so constricted and bound by my body, i want to rip my skin of, step out for a moment and look at my life. what are you doing? i don’t understand, why aren’t you screaming, why aren’t you running, why aren’t you crying, fucking move, fucking say something, Marina JUST FUCKING GO! i peel off my mask because its already breaking, splitting at the seems, while i hold on to my last bit of sanity, grasping it and squeezing the life out of it. Sometime i don’t even feel alive, i feel like an empty shell just floating through the motions. Gravity? i need some help, slap me back in my body would so i can try to make sense of this shit thats called the game of life and all the pieces to the game are scattered on the floor and im just trying to keep it in the box so nothing gets lost….

i feel like my heart could explode right now. everything going on in my head at once… i can’t process all of this information, yet some how, i’m doing it thanks to you, tiny orange pill, i feel limitless yet so constricted and bound by my body, i want to rip my skin of, step out for a moment and look at my life. what are you doing? i don’t understand, why aren’t you screaming, why aren’t you running, why aren’t you crying, fucking move, fucking say something, Marina JUST FUCKING GO! i peel off my mask because its already breaking, splitting at the seems, while i hold on to my last bit of sanity, grasping it and squeezing the life out of it. Sometime i don’t even feel alive, i feel like an empty shell just floating through the motions. Gravity? i need some help, slap me back in my body would so i can try to make sense of this shit thats called the game of life and all the pieces to the game are scattered on the floor and im just trying to keep it in the box so nothing gets lost….

Again funny how things go….

I can’t get the tightness in my chest to go away. I feel like I can’t breath

Well I’ll be damned…

That momment when You sit and realize all the douche nozzles you gave your heart to, way to pick winners princess…. Need to leave the (804) like now ugh…. Obx only like 20 more hours till I’m in the car and on my way to you beautiful shores

Note to self….

11:50pm on a Wednesday night laying on bed you’re thinking to yourself… When you’re at the beach seriously meditate…. Find inner peace. Don’t reach out to anyone until you’ve found you, you don’t need to… Just stop looking, stop thinking, just let it be. It’ll cone to you whatever it may be youll deserve it.

Showered by moonlight.

Showered by moonlight.

List of thoughts….

-dudes be fuckin trippin so ive checked out of the whole “flavor of the week” thing, the idea of talking to any guy gives me a headache, so eat me Aphrodite, love and beauty is a bunch of shit, and I’m tired of dealing with it.
-I’m so ready to go to he obx, hatteras is the one place in the world that I’m truly my happiest, of course I haven’t been to very many different places, this vacation it very VERY much needed, and very well deserved I think, I’m sure certain people think otherwise but whatever
-as soon as I get back from the beach I can’t wait to start school, I feel like I’m actually going for a reason for once and it’s something other than art, still creative but solid for a career….. Thats all. The thoughts for now I suppose